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Poor you. For years I felt afraid of my mother and couldn't understand why. I was her carer and I was the only member of the family that lived close so it all fell to me. When I needed a holiday, I used to send money to other relatives to come and stay so that I could have my break.It was as though I had to pay for consideration and any act of support or kindness,yet I never felt appreciated. It was only after I had a massive breakdown 3 years ago that I finally finally broke free. I had lost three members of my family in five years, my father, husband, and one sister, yet I had no time to grieve. It was only after councelling that I discovered that I had no real memory of my childhood, things I thought were memories were occations and things instilled into my head by others.Hypnotherapy found the root of my fear of my mother. Basically I did not have a happy childhood. I was a built in babysitter for my siblings from the age of seven, and I was to blame if they did anything wrong.I cannot go into detail, but briefly my mother had cheated on my father, I had caught the strange man in the house with mum, and I was blamed for telling my dad about it, which I did not.I had been threatened by the pair of them . Told they would sell me to the gypsies if I told anyone what I had seen. This had been at the root of my fears for over fifty years,but I have broken free. I walked away from my mother, not because of what she had done in the past but because of her attitude to my breakdown. I faced her with my fears, and got the response of 'get over it, I cannot help you, it is all in your mind`, With that response, I walked out and I have lived only for my own family since, and I feel liberated. There is always light at the end of the tunnel and I hope you find the way forward to live your life the way you want it to be.